Email to Nathalie

4 May

Yup I suffer from anxiety. Its been a part of my since June 2015. Over the last year I have learned a great deal about this debilitating disorder. I’ve also gone to great lengths both financially and time wise, on trying to beat it. I know what caused my anxiety: my job. But I also learned that I never dealt with the death of a cousin, quickly came to terms with his death… and then went back to the anxiety caused by my job. I know my anxiety is temporary. It does NOT define me. I’m hanging out by a thread, waiting for the school year to be over so I can officially close this chapter in my life and HEAL. I can’t heal with the thought of professional and LEGAL obligations hanging over my head. Being a teacher requires us to sign a legal contract from August until June 30th. My family has been supportive, but at this point they are at a loss of words and don’t know what else to do for me. Because its really up to me to beat this motherfucker. My sister ran into an old friend, Nathalie, at the Verizon store and told her about me. Nathalie hasn’t messaged me so I reached out to her. I know its hard admitting that you have anxiety which we also know is closely linked to depression. Here’s most of the message I wrote to Nathalie today. I’m guilty of not following my own advice and will be printing my message shortly so I can remind myself of all these strategies:


“My sister said you had wanted to talk to me about anxiety. It sucks!! No doubt about it. Mine is caused by my job. I’m looking forward to the end of the school year so I can move on with my life. I also found out that I never really grieved for my cousin who passed away 2 years ago. Luckily, I have come to terms with his death. There are 12 major pieces of advice I can give you:

#1 Go got counseling or therapy immediately. You have to find out what is your true underlying cause of anxiety to help yourself. Ask your doctor for a referral or go to Mariposa Women and Family Center in Orange.

#2 DO NOT go on medication. They have many harmful side effects.

#3 Diet and exercise should be a priority. Exercise as much as you can because it also helps release positive chemicals into our brain.

#4 Journal your thoughts. Our brains are very powerful and can sometimes make us stress out more than we should. Journaling gives our thoughts a place to go.

#5 Its ok to cry. Crying is a release of emotions.

#6 Anxiety has emotional and physical side effects. Take care of both your mind and body. Go get a massage, go to a sauna, jacuzzi, acupuncture, or chiropractor. My favorite is massage and chiropractor.

#7 Yoga! It has helped me so much. Do some yoga in the morning after waking up or at night before bed. It helps regulate our breathing. I go on youtube for my yoga sessions.

#8 Talk to your REAL friends about your struggles. Expressing our emotions helps our minds so much.

#9 Take magnesium powder at night to help you go to sleep. Its considered “nature’s Xanax.” You can buy it on amazon.

#10 Do what makes you happy! Sing, watch funny movies, hang out with loved ones

#11 nature, nature, nature. Go to the park, beach, hiking. Fresh, cleaner air is always good.

#12 Take mini road trips if possible. Visit a cousin in LA or San Diego. They give us a break from reality.

#13 Take your vitamins/supplements. B complex and high doses of vitamin C are super important in keeping anxiety levels down.

#14 Go to the doctor and make sure you aren’t sick. Get your blood work, pap smears, boobs checked. Make sure you don’t actually have a medical condition that is causing the anxiety.

#15 Progress is happiness! You can’t expect to beat anxiety overnight. You will have your good days and bad days. Just remember to keep track of your progress. I’m still not over my anxiety because I have to deal with it every day. But I have definitely made progress since I was first diagnosed in June of 2015. I know how to do deal with it. I still struggle to be in public since some of my anxiety attacks have happened at the grocery store and malls. But at least I know its is the freakin anxiety and that I’m not dying or having a heart attack. I’m still counting down the days until the end of the school year as I know I have a long recovery ahead. But now I have the tools to try and kick this motherfucker in the ass. Keep your head up and don’t forget to ask me if you have any questions!”   




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